Step one

Autumn is still so beautiful. After the hot summer, it can always be my favorite again, even though the weather is colder and colder.
Maybe I should say that the cold weather makes warmness precious, and thus all these colors, red,orange and yellow, look especially pretty and happy.
Happiness is said to be the hardest thing to obtain nowadays. However, once it is not affected by others, it then becomes the richest belonging. From then on, it won’t be stolen until the death.

Step one.
That’s the title of this week’s episode of ‘private practice’. And that’s what I thought about yesterday.
After the delay of over two months, I eventually launched the preparation of the proposal for comprehensive exam. Similarly, the preparation of my plan of study also delayed for about two to three months last semester. It appears like step one is always the hardest to take. There are always lots of concerns at the beginning, which brings tiredness and reduces the passion to actually start. But most of the time, the actual process turns out to be less difficult. Even though to force myself to take the first step is a little more painful, there won’t be any other steps without the first one. If it has to be done anyway, it’s always better to start earlier.
Addison’s words in the end of the episode reminds me of Rene’s words. To believe what you want to believe, because only that increases the possibility of the hope to become true. To believe, and then it can turn to be the real.
There are always hard times, always. But even still fighting alone, I know that’s the only way. Once these are done, I will grow up and the future become less difficult. Sometimes it feels interesting to predict the result and the truth when others are still struggling in the between and wondering about the consequences.Or I should say it sounds a little bit cold or cruel. But,to continue or to give up brings what the results look like, and I am the only person to take the full responsibility.

P.S. ‘In time with you’ is nice. It’s a warm story from ordinary lives. It feels like someone talking to you peacefully, with a gentle voice.It reminds me of Annie’s words. Even though the latter mostly sound too clear-headed, they still feel intimate. Because they are all the reality.